I've started a lot of things.
Inumerous ideas and projects that got to the second day and stalled. CSS explorations that lived in some folder, somewhere in the cloud and died there. Italian lessons that were going great until they weren't. A roll of film I shot in March that I still haven't developed.
None of these are failures. But they all disappeared — no record, no trace, no context for why they mattered at the time. Which helped my not-very-sane-mind to think I was not creative, or sucessful, or that I hold any value.
Throughout my whole life that was the problem I was trying to solve.
not a portfolio
A portfolio implies finished things. Polished things. Things you're ready to put your name on and say: this is what I do and feel proud that you did so.
I'm not there yet. I might never be there with some of this stuff. And that's fine - cause all things should have somewhere to be put at.
not a blog
A blog implies a cadence. Regular updates. An audience you're writing for. A voice you've settled into.
I don't have any of that figured out. I have a lot of half-thoughts and ideas and things I learned on a Tuesday that I'd forgotten by Thursday.
something in between
mayb-lab is the place where the b-sides live. The experiments. The process. The things that are interesting before they're good or gone.
"maybe" - the state most of my projects are in. Maybe this becomes something. Maybe it doesn't. Either way, it existed, and that's worth recording.
This is entry one. Let's see where it goes.